At first, I was disgusted with myself. I did everything in my power to avoid the mirror: dress in the dark, shower with your eyes closed... You know those days when you're just so down on yourself. "You're such a fat cow. You'll never be successful at anything. You'lll never be in control of anything important, never make a difference. Hell, ya can't even control your own body, you fattie." Maybe I get a bit carried away sometimes, but don't we all? Like I said, that was my initial reaction. I have now been enlightened (hopefully this state of enlightenment lasts) and I have decided that this is just another hurdle, and I am capable of getting over it. And when I do get over it, and I say when because I WILL get over it... I am going to be, for lack of a better word, foxy. ;]
My plan? Well, I'm starting off with small goals. Goals that I can easily see, because at this point, it's difficult to imagine my body at 140-145 pounds. I recently purchased Jillian Michaels 'Ripped In 30' DVD and today was day ein. I'll tell you right now, it kicked my ass, but I feel good. I mean, I will feel good when my body gets used to the workouts, but right now I feel like crawling into a ball and hiding. So, I lied... I don't feel good, but I have foresight, you see? I know that I will eventually feel really good. On top of that, I took a 2 mile run, which didn't feel great either, not yet that is. And now, here I am. I am going to make this work. I am going to focus and I am going to find one thing to motivate me every day. Losing weight doesn't happen overnight (unless you had a baby, then technically, yeah) but it is possible. It's a journey that takes drive and an appetite (pardon the pun) to change the way you feel, look, and think. You have to actually want to be a healthier you. At the end of the day, that's the most important thing: your health. Feeling great, and looking AWESOME are just perks, right?
Today is the 6th day of September, that means that I have just under 4 months to lose this weight. I'm going to try to post at least once a week, about my progress and how I'm feeling. My nest post will be my measurements and maybe (if I can conjure up the courage) I'll post a few "before" photos. We'll see. I know that I don't really have anyone reading this, but it's a good way to help myself feel organized, I reckon.
There it is. Here I go! I hope you have a great week. :)
Meadow
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